Today, I’m smiling again. Yesterday, I made a decision that could’ve potentially ruined one of the most important relationships in my life, but I felt it to be the right thing to do. Yes, it hurts letting go of someone you love. But, that doesn’t mean you stop loving them, or that just because we’re teenagers, our relationships mean nothing. Love is a strong word, that should be used in the right context. I realized, letting go of the one thing I loved the most, was the right thing to do because it was keeping me from being who I am.
That is when you know that it’s time to give yourself a break, time to find who you are without the help of anyone else because that is one journey that you’re going to have to take on your own. There will be risk, there will be pain, but there will be truth. Giving up something you love dearly, to become the person you know you are inside isn’t a stupid mistake! That is a sign of strength.
Things may grow bitter, words may never be exchanged again between us, but I don’t regret what I’ve done. I didn’t do what I did to find a new significant other, I did what I did to become myself.
Just look at me, I’m writing again, I feel good. I can voice my feelings again! That’s something I never thought I’d be able to do again, and here I am, not forcing, but enjoying writing because that’s part of who I am. There truly is a time for everything, and my time for love will come. It was probably too early for me to fall so hard, and now that I have a fresh start, I can focus on the important things in my life, building a life for myself before I never get the chance to do it again.
P.S. I want to thank all of you guys that actually read my blog. I never did thank you guys enough, so here I am. I want you to know how much it means to me to have what I’ve written, read. ♥
– Anisa Nasir ♥