Dear Diary: That Struggle Within ♥

Dear Diary,

Do you ever feel like what you’re doing with your life is not enough? Like you’re lacking so much inspiration, so much drive that you find it hard to breathe sometimes. That you just want to stay in bed all day and wallow, even if you really don’t have anything to wallow about? 

That’s how life is.

It’s a struggle, every single day to wake up, get out of bed, and do something productive more than is understood. I admire the ability of some, getting up, being productive, working out, keeping it together. I know that I’m still a teenager and I’ve not reached the point in my life where I have to fend for myself entirely, but I honestly know how hard it is to try sometimes.

I wanted so badly to be a morning person, to wake up refreshed and well-rested. I can’t do that because I Lucid Dream every night, and that can be exhausting, especially if it is a nightmare. I’m tired all the time, and I’m frantically trying to fix it, to better myself.

I have to push myself to do better, to build up a resistance to my LAZINESS. 

“Laziness is a disease.”

I know I have said that before, but it is true. People don’t understand how even not going out and getting some fresh air once in a while can really affect your wellbeing. There is a time to try and better things, and that time is now.

Much love,

Anisa Nasir ♥




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