Dear Diary: A Holiday That’s Incomplete ♥
“Start thinking about what you’re afraid of, and tackle that motherfucker to the ground.” – Anna Akana.
So of course, it’s Christmas break, and I’m supposed to be off doing something exciting. Exciting? Ha! I’ve done nothing more than lay in bed all day wishing I had something to do. Truth is, I have so much I could be doing, but I’m too lazy to even try. The New Year is rolling around, and I know that my biggest resolution would definitely be to rid myself of this lingering procrastination. I have had plenty of time to catch up on sleep, and be away from all of my day-to-day problems, which I am entirely thankful for. However, I feel like something’s missing.
Do you ever get that feeling that you’re missing something, but at the same time, you feel content enough to continue on with your life? I pondered this for quite a while, wondering if it’s a matter of my heart, my goals, or just myself entirely. Unfortunately, I haven’t come up with an answer. I’m comfortable where I am right now, comfortable living a normal teenage life, with greater aspirations, a small crush, and plenty of hope for the future. It feels nice to be happy around this time, because I remember how painful December was last year. October-December, remains to be the time for me to be at my happiest, enjoy life, and plan for the future.
Life isn’t meant to be taken advantage of, and sometimes we’re too afraid, too overwhelmed to get things done, and believe me I know. Sometimes, we just have to let it all go and try, because at the end of the day, the effort is what counts. Putting yourself out there and trying to do something you’ve always wanted to do will benefit you somehow. So, for now, everything seems to be going pretty well, and I have plenty to do. I just need to get off my ass, and do something about it!