Dear Diary: Small Victories ♥︎
“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.” – Oscar Wilde
As a young girl dealing with anxiety, everyday actions can seem hard to do. I remember that only a few days ago I was running out of a program because I couldn’t breathe, and I felt as though I was going to faint. Today, I went to a wedding, and at weddings, there is no room for social anxiety. I told myself that if I were to just get through the next few hours, I would be able to do anything.
It is because we take the time to celebrate the small victories that we begin to see just how much we’ve changed. I’m not the same person I was a couple of days ago, and I’m constantly changing. Why? Because I’m allowing myself to strengthen instead of always holding myself down.
People don’t understand how tough anxiety can be to deal with if they haven’t experienced it themselves. For me, it is pretty intense, and if you know what this feels like, you’ll understand what I’m trying to say. I guess, what I’m trying to say is that there will come a time when we’re able to bring ourselves out of those terrible experiences and remember that we’re fine, we’re alive, and we’re healthy. I know that I’m not a pessimist, and that I try to see the best in things, but it isn’t always easy.
It may not always look like it, but I’m an optimist underneath. I know that there is more to life than meets the eye, just as there is more to each and every person we see every day. I’m doing better, working harder, and standing taller. I’m finally on my way home.
Here’s a beautiful song, take a listen: Home – Gabrielle Aplin ♥︎