“I’ve had many instances where I’ve been told that I should be doing something more with my time than devoting it to a story. However, I’d just like to say that people underestimate the amount of work it takes to effectively write one. We spend our time trying to convey a message in a way that will leave you inspired. We write to make ourselves happy, and that is one notion I will never abandon.”
Have you ever been in a situation where you try to convince yourself that you’re not in a downwards spiral of anxiety and dread? If there is one thing that I’ve learned in dealing with my anxiety, is that if the situation is strong enough to have such a physical effect on you, and you are able to remove yourself from that situation, do.
I say that because as a person that deals with anxiety constantly, I’ve begun to realize that I feel out of place in certain situations and then later on in my life, those situations become easier to deal with. I’ve had a lot of people ask me what I want to do once I’m done with University, and I’ve had people go as far as to say, “Are you going to write? Or are you going to get a real job?”
I’d like to address this for a second. Situations like these make me anxious, because I’m not one to ever plan too far ahead. I don’t know if I’m going to want to have a shift in career paths, I don’t know what is going to be the best decision for myself and my wellbeing. For now, I’m allowing myself to dream. I’m allowing myself to believe that I can do what I love, and I’m trusting my instincts. I’ve had moments where I’d be writing, and I’d feel too self-conscious about a certain phrase or sentence, so that I’d be tempted to change it. I never change it. For when I do, I always change it back. That is because, when I write, I do it to make myself happy. I write what I’m feeling, I put my soul into what I do because that is what feels right. Writing is a real job, writing is hard work. I’ll never stop believing that.
To all you aspiring authors, like myself, hang in there. Your work is amazing, and your vision is all your own. No one can ever take that away from you.