“Sometimes, our best efforts do not seem good enough. Sometimes we feel as though we are lacking a better part of ourselves. The part that allows us to take in the motivation, to turn that into something we’re undoubtedly proud of. Lately, I’ve been feeling as though I haven’t been doing enough, as though I haven’t been putting in enough effort to get to where I want to go. Above, you see the third piece to my small “Typewriter Letters” trilogy. One, I know for a fact is not my best work, and that’s okay.”
As I was writing earlier I could feel everything I wanted to say, but I wasn’t able to get it across the way I’d like. Usually, when I finish a piece of poetry, I’d feel some kind of fulfillment, as though I’ve completed yet another goal, something I could be proud of. I can’t help but notice the times that doesn’t happen, but I have to remember that I won’t always be happy with my material. My “Typewriter Letters” trilogy was just that, a trilogy and yet I didn’t include the above piece in the collection of my favorite pieces. Yes, the fact that it is the third piece not being included bothers me, but I’ve made the executive decision to leave it out because I’m staying true to what that folder on my desktop means when it says: Favorites.
I have to remember that as a writer, I’m going to have off days, I’m going to have days that I write a lot of what may be changed in the coming times. I spend too much of my time worrying about the unnecessary details, I spend too much time doing everything except actually writing. It has been a goal of mine, to be the kind of person that is able to write a little bit every day, just enough to feel accomplished. However, that is something that I am still, to this day, working on.
With the start of summertime, I’ve wanted to expand my writing, I’ve wanted to take it to other platforms as well as this one. Of course, the fear has set in, and that’s why I haven’t made the effort to take any of my work there. I am in the process of making that change, I am in the process of drafting a few pieces for platforms like Medium. I have read so many inspirational articles on that platform, and whilst I have no qualifications to be writing such, I have my personal experience. I can share that with the world. That is what makes me a writer, for I write for myself first.
I’ve also been finding it exceptionally hard to get through novels the way I used to, and that is something that will have to change. I need to expand my horizons, read something captivating. I need to pull myself out of this rut and remember what it feels like to do what I love. There will always be times when you find that you are slacking, that you aren’t doing things like you used to. Don’t do things like you used to, make a change, try something different, expand your horizons. You’ll never know what will spark an interest.
Thank you for listening to my Monday ramblings!
P.S. Here’s another quick piece I wrote (one that I’m happy with).