“There are times when we find it nearly impossible to claw our way out of the rut we find ourselves in. For the past few weeks, I had been trying my best to ignore my greater issues rather than deal with them. As of this week, I’ve spent a lot more of my time getting to the root of the issue, so that I can carry myself in a calm, collected manner and focus on all the things that still need to get done.”
It’s hard to stay on track when anxiety gets the best of us. Everyone has off days, days where you feel as though you’re unable to function. You’re allowed to have those days, but it’s important know where your limits are. If I were to give in entirely, I wouldn’t get a thing done. All my goals would be held up in a notebook somewhere, never to see the light of day.
The moment I made it out, got out here on vacation, I’ve managed to clear my head. I’ve managed to see just where I had begun to make connections where there weren’t any, where I had begun to worry about things that no longer concerned me. As I sit here writing this, I have managed to relax. Now that is something I rarely ever do. I enjoy being in overdrive, I enjoy having a million things to do, and getting them all done. Though, I have begun to limit myself, so that I don’t feel the need to do too much in too little time.
There are many other things besides writing that I want to accomplish this Summer:
- Read a ton
- Get back into my exercise routine (I’ll start tomorrow).
- Learn a new skill
- Learn to sleep before 3 A.M.
- Find time to relax
- Finish “Criminal Minds” (Or at least, get up to date).
When I am lost in my worry, I find it incredibly difficult to take my mind off of things. I simply cannot. I like to analyze the problem, find a possible solution for the problem. However, if there’s one thing I know for sure it is that: not everything can be fixed. There will be moments where it will take every ounce of energy we have to move on, and that is most certainly something I’ve been dealing with and will be dealing with for quite some time to come.
As for the novel in progress, I’ve come quite a far way, and I’ve taken it back to the good ol’ pen and paper to get the ideas flowing, as well as a short list to keep track of everything I may want to do in the editing process (so that I don’t spend forever trying to fix my mistakes as I go along). I am hoping to have this done before NaNoWriMo so I can partake successfully and this give this project a lengthy edit afterwards. It’s all quite exciting, writing always is even when we’re not exactly sure what it is we should be writing about.