“There are times when I spend too much time planning, and not enough time executing those plans. As of right now I am currently reading through every page of my novel rigorously, understanding every move my characters have made thus far. Of course, my novel is by no means complete, nor will it be for a while. However, I am doing this for my benefit. I am working towards having the grounds for a deeper understanding of my work, and placing myself in my characters’ shoes. I want to be able to visualize all that they’re going through.”
I was just thumbing through my drafts, and I believe I’ve accidentally deleted yesterday’s post. So, here I am again, for I can’t have a week without a post. Besides that factor, I woke up this morning feeling incredibly unmotivated. As I began my morning routine, I realized something. I am the kind of person that is always making plans:
- Write your novel
- Attend your appointment
- Curl up into a ball and ignore your seemingly nagging responsibilities
Though, I rarely spend just as much time actually carrying out those plans. My usual response is: “What can I put off until tomorrow?” Now, that is definitely not the mindset I want to be in.
I was on the phone this morning with one of my most creative friends, and as she was lining up all that she needed to do, I began to do the same. I watched as I listened to her, just how much my calendar grew. I began to actually do the things I wrote down, instead of realizing it was there and watching Criminal Minds instead (which, I do way too much). It was then I realized that the reason I’m not getting enough done, is because I expect to get too much done on a daily basis. I’ll never feel as accomplished as I want to, at the end of every day, and that is something I’m going to have to get used to.
Writing a novel for me began with an idea I wanted to elaborate on, and as that idea grew, I grew with it. I learned a lot about who I am as a writer as well as noticing my writing style for what it is. I am still combing through, and there is still quite a lot to be done. However, it is the time when things aren’t going exactly as planned, that I do my best. That is because I spend time trying to make up for it, I spend time doing the things I love to combat the less than enjoyable feelings I might be possessing. Keep at your story, watch it grow. When it is truly over, you will have learned something. Whether that be about yourself, or your characters. You’ll always be learning something new.