“I had a dream that left me rattled as I slowly regained consciousness. I had a dream that left me with the will to write, with the will to change what I can to make the most of the idea that has presented itself.”
I used to dream quite vividly, quite often. However, I’ve come to realize that lately I haven’t been dreaming in such a way that it would leave an impact on just how I felt when I woke up. A few nights ago, I was blatantly presented with every complex situation in my life all at once. I was faced with a few decisions I’ve been dreading to make, and as I’ve skimmed through each situation, I realized just how much I was beginning to learn about myself. I’d like to look at it as preparation, a way for me to spend less time worrying about all that I have to do, and look at it logically. (I tend to worry a lot).
“The first thing I wanted to do when I woke up this morning was write. I wanted to incorporate all I’ve thought about into my current project. I wanted to continue with what I’ve set out to do.”
It’s been quite a while since I’ve managed to feel that way, for I’ve got quite a lot on my mind. It’s a beautiful feeling, it’s extremely fulfilling to long to do the one thing that never lets you down. Surely, I’ve been spending quite a lot of time away from the screen, as I explore my characters’ journeys without trying to “find” the next step. I’ve quite liked this method, because I feel as though my brain has a lot more room to really explore what is going on, rather than trying to “sort out the plot.” This has made writing just as enjoyable as I always knew it was, and it has allowed my story to take the turns even I couldn’t have predicted. (Those are my favorite).
As this piece has progressed, I’ve noticed that I’ve begun to inject quite a lot of myself and my own experiences into this lovely piece of fiction. That is something I’ve never had the guts to do before, and that is something I will continue to do as my writing style continues to grow. Writing has and always will be subjective, and I’ve begun to learn that it’s necessary to hold onto the innocence of writing itself, instead of judging every move you make, because that judgment is what ruins writing for you, that is the reason you find it hard to progress. I know it may be hard, but let it all go for a while. See where the story takes you, it may be the one thing you need to remember just h0w talented you are.