“There are times when things just don’t go as planned. There are times when you’re fairly certain you’re going to get everything done at a certain time, but then life happens, and you’re just going to have to pick up where you left off. I am not where I want to be concerning my word count for NaNoWriMo, but I’m also not behind. I’m doing just fine with the time I have utilized, and that should very well be good enough. I’ve made some major changes to my plot, and it has thrown the novel completely off course – and I couldn’t be happier.”
Sometimes we feel as though we’re sure as to what it is we can accomplish, and we happen to fall short, it can very well be disheartening. This past week has been a tough one, for I’ve dealt with a lot more than even I thought I was capable of handling anymore. I know now that I am thankful for the brief moment of true reflection that came with all that has happened, and with that I have managed to find my footing again.
When it comes to writing, I’ve always spent too much of my time worrying about the insignificant details, rather than trying to progress my project as a whole. I’ve also spent enough time trying to convince myself that I could have a busy day of school, studying, assignments, and still somehow crawl into bed and write 10k. – Let’s just say that has yet to happen. However, trying to pick back up means that I had quite a lot of work to do, and it therefore meant I had to take a quick break from my novel (yes, quick. I’m back at it. I am not giving up). I am slowly awaiting this month’s crunch time, because I know just how well I work under pressure – but that doesn’t mean I’m going to leave it all to do during that time. I’ve been trying to make it easier on myself, but it hasn’t been easy.
It’s just been worth it.
I did start off my novel with an initial idea of what the plot was going to look like, but I didn’t spend too much of my time trying to plan too much into it. I knew that I wanted to delve into it, I wanted to draw out every discerning detail about my characters and the way they live their lives, so my plot could take shape the way it truly should – naturally. I didn’t want to have to force any of it, I wanted to put myself in their shoes, experience their hardships, and write something that I’ve really never done before.
“I wanted to remind myself of what it felt like to get lost in my writing, to forget all about the what ifs, the hows, the whens, and just give it my all. It’s been quite some time since I’ve been able to do that, but I’m sure glad I finally decided to try. It has given my writing a new perspective, it has given my capabilities a new perspective, one I’ll be sure to explore further as I progress in learning more – and doing more.”