“It’s been a long time coming, and this NaNoWriMo has proved to be the most challenging one yet. However, I’ve made it. I’ve made it to 50k and then some, I’ve finished the first draft of my novel, and I don’t think I’ve ever been more content. This month I’ve learned a lot about what I’m capable of, how much writing I can actually do when I’m n0t telling myself that it isn’t good enough. I’ve learned just what it feels like to be in love with my writing again, and I’m so proud of what I’ve come out of it with, that I cannot wait to get editing. (At least, I can say that for now). It’s time for a well deserved break, time to catch up on my reading, and I’ll take editing the manuscript one step at a time.”
I honestly can’t believe I finished with time to spare. As I laid in bed last night, attempting to finish the last of the book, I wasn’t sure I’d be able to get through it. The ending of a story has always been the hardest part for me, because that was the time I undoubtedly wanted to outdo myself. I’m happy with the way I ended the story, and I can’t wait to really thumb through it when I get it printed out, so that I can run my red ink along it all.
If there is anything I’ve learned this here November, it’s that perseverance is key. There were so many days I felt as though I wanted to start over, to change so much of what was already there, to do everything I’m not supposed to do whilst participating in NaNo. Though, I was able to shove all of that aside, and focus on the plot. I’m content with how the story turned out, and I look forward to fine-tuning the execution (and trimming down my excessively long chapters). I really pushed myself this time around, and I am so glad I did. I wanted to be done a few days before, so that I could let it all sink in.
From the very beginning, I was having second thoughts. I wasn’t entirely sure I’d have enough time to properly execute this here project of mine. N0w, it needs a lot of work. It has a long way to go, and this is merely the beginning, but I’m excited. I feel like after all of the time I’ve spent being so hard on myself, I’ve finally understood just how much I missed writing without truly critiquing my every move. This story of mine took an entirely different turn from what I had expected, but I am so glad that it did. Throughout the entire novel, I was constantly having to make a call. I was constantly having to make plot-altering changes. It was amazing how one sentence, or one paragraph could change the entire plot. There came a time at the very end where i had to make one of these calls. The ending I originally penned, was a good one, but it wasn’t good enough. I sat with it for a while, 1,000 words left to get out, and then it hit me. I let it flow, I got it down, and I’m entirely happy with it. That is something extraordinary in itself.
I hope you all have had a wonderful NaNoWriMo this year, and that you’ve reached all that you’ve set out to accomplish.