“It is safe to say that there are going to be days when everything you’ve been suppressing, hits you pretty hard. The last four years of my life have been the emptiest, for when one loses a parent, it’s hard to appreciate life’s achievements as they come by. Though, I’ve learned to live with a lot. I’ve learned to separate that feeling of sadness from my everyday life, so that I could move forward with the best of my ability. If there’s one thing I know for sure, it is that there is an undeniable strength that settles within you when things like that happen, and it continues to grow. It has affected my life in ways I’ll never be able to understand, but I’ve also learned more about myself than I ever thought possible. Now, I’m confident in my determination to do all that I’ve planned to do and accomplish all that I can.”
That baggage is what got me to where I am. That baggage is the reason I continue to grow as a person, as a writer, as someone that will never stop trying.
It feels good to be back home. I finally feel at ease again, in that I can get back to routine. Winter vacation is over now, and as much as that does sadden me, I am entirely ready to throw myself back into my work again. (Now I can get back to cracking open new planners and writing a to-do list in the absolute wrong date box). I also am not entirely fond of blogging this late at night, but for some reason I feel a lot more at ease. (Though, I’m blogging this late because my schedule has gone back to being too hectic and I spent the day stressing about how to fix it – and then proceeding to fix it). Problem solving!
I have a list of everything that I want to accomplish on a day-to-day basis, that of which is incredibly doable if I can plan it all correctly. Did I mention that I also spent the day without a planner? If there’s one thing I know I must have on me, it’s a planner. (Sometimes, the google calendar isn’t enough). I’m constantly writing down the world of a to-do list, much of which I’ll end up postponing to the following day. Moral of the story: It all gets done. I’m also looking to get back into writing something big and extensive, once I conclude getting through my NaNoWriMo novel at least once. I quite miss writing poetry as well, and I’ll be sure to integrate both of those into my routine. I can definitely say that it feels good to be journaling again. At least I’m always exercising my writing, and not holding it all in for days on end. My Moleskine is full of ideas waiting to be explored, and I can definitely say that I will be doing just that and more.
Happy Writing Everyone!