“This month has not been what I expected. I expected to have it all together, to make headway on all the things I want to accomplish, and to welcome all the change that is happening in my life. Though, things didn’t quite work out that way and I am forced to accept that. I’m most certainly not as productive as I could be, and the truth is I’ve been slacking. I’ve been slacking because there is a certain sense of uncertainty that has made its way into my life. As I always note, things won’t always be perfect, and there are always going to be days where I do not feel up to just about anything. Today was one of those days, and that is okay.”
I was debating whether or not it’d be worth it to still post today, and I realized that missing my blog day would result in me feeling even worse about this week’s activities (or lack thereof). I’m at that stage where I know exactly what I need to be doing, and I know that I’m not doing enough to make any of that happen. That is something that most certainly has to change. I’m at a standstill with myself, for as time goes on, I realize that there are certain things I am not even sure I actually want. People always say to continue doing what makes you happy. I haven’t been doing enough of that either.
I began the year with a plan (or something along those lines) and I refuse to allow this moment of minor frustration get the better of me. Yes, things are incredibly stressful right now, but with time (and effort) I’ll be able to get a handle on it all. Lying around feeling sorry for myself isn’t going to get me anywhere. No matter how terrible I feel, at least I know that writing does indeed make me feel better. I’ve accepted that the last few days have been pretty stressful, and that it will pass. I’ve noticed that when these days do come around, I find myself attempting to make it better, but I never sit down and deal with the problem head on (I see a pattern here).
“The Current Problem: I’m currently rather unproductive. I do not feel as though I’m in the right headspace to get anything done.”
We are most definitely going to fix that. For even though this wave of anxiety has been brought on by situations entirely unrelated to productivity, I say it’s time I finally get out of bed and get a few things done. That starts with this blog post. Here’s to not missing this week’s addition!