I Have the Will to Maintain My Creative Fire
“I woke up this morning with the urge to get things done. Before I went to bed last night, I set a sound to-do list (a realistic one at that) and I woke up ready. For the past few weeks, I’ve been spending a lot of time trying to cultivate my writing skill, as though I’d somehow forgotten how it felt to accomplish something. Well, I’ve picked up, I’m taking action, and I’m going to have to start producing results if I want to move forward and accomplish all the goals I’ve set out to complete. It’s never easy, and it’s never going to be quite a simple process. However, I know just how much it’s worth.”
As I’ve gotten older, writing has gotten harder. It’s gotten harder to allow myself the true possibility of the creative process, as if my first thought once I begin writing is: “Will this be good enough?” That’s no way to get things done. In order to revisit the feeling of not caring what other people think about my writing, and not caring about who sees it when, or how many people read it in its entirety, I have to allow myself to let go. I have to stop being afraid to let my emotions fuel my writing, for they’re what got me involved in writing in the first place. People always tell me that I shouldn’t be wasting my time, that I should be setting goals for something realistic. Those people don’t quite understand the importance of storytelling, and how much it can truly do for a person. I don’t write for validation, nor do I write with the next ten steps in mind. I began writing because it was something I could always rely on, and I allowed myself to further my learning of subject so I could be comfortable with what I was doing.
“There will always be times when I regret the executive decisions I’ve made when it comes to my writing, and there will always be times when I wish I could have changed the decision to scrap a piece of work, or a few pieces of work. Though, what’s important is that regardless of those decisions, it doesn’t change what I can do with the time I’m allowing specifically for my writing, reading, and exploring all that I love about the creative process.”
I can certainly say that there are days where I wake up feeling like I’d rather just lay in bed, do what I have to do and get back to doing absolutely nothing. Though, writing is something I have to do for myself, it’s something that needs to be a staple in my routine, so that I don’t lose sight of all the things I really do want. I can’t accomplish any of those things unless I work towards it. They do say that actions speak louder than words, and I’m going to make sure that I appreciate my efforts instead of spending all of my time criticizing it.