“‘I’ve got it together,’ she says, as she has absolutely no idea what it is she’s doing and where she’s headed, but she keeps her head high. She knows what she wants. She wants contentment, excitement, and most of all fulfillment. That is the sole reason in which she writes.”
Creativity is subjective, the best of what we know to be good literature is itself subjective. I can’t say that I’m lacking inspiration as of late, if anything, it’s been flooding my day-to-day life and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I know that from the moment I immerse myself in a good book, there’s that feeling of elation, of excitement, of the longing to do something quite as great one day. I never want to lose sight of that. That is what makes me who I am.
I have a vision of myself waking up every morning and heading straight to my desk, which in a messy disarray of beautiful parchment paper, notebooks filled to the brim, and a collection of completed Moleskines. Of course, there would be the extensive collection of books, my typewriter(s), and all around a place to call my own. It’s not about the environment in which you’re in, it’s about what you plan to do with it. That vision is not far off, as I can very well get out of bed and move two inches to my desk. I can also very well write to my heart’s content, and until my desk is in comfortable disarray. There are times in which I ask myself (and this being one of those times) why I even bother to hold back, to put things off until later, to put off feeling that small sense of accomplishment.
Surely, every day is different. There are days that will seem much busier than others. There are going to be days where each and every one of us feel like there just isn’t enough time to get everything done, and that is okay. I tend to work a lot in advance. I try to do as much as possible in the given time that I’m writing, so that I’m giving my all to my current task. I don’t feel quite as bad about the days I get a little busier when I do this, but it doesn’t always work out in my favour. Though, I can say that I understand just how important balance is, and how healthy it is to maintain that balance.
“I’ve probably said this many times, but wanting to do something very badly, and actually doing anything are two completely different things. I’m not saying wake up and slay the dragon, I’m saying do what you can. Work your way there. Don’t lose sight of all the things that inspire you, that keep you going, that give your life meaning and that make you who you are.”
We all do it. We say we’re going to change a million things, and we sometimes do very little. However, don’t look down on the effort you do put forth. Get up, write a bit, read a bit, and call it a day. The next time, write a bit more, read a bit more, work your way there. Don’t let those opportunities, those ideas, or those goals pass you by.