“The reintroduction to a lifestyle that once was will always be difficult. Sometimes, we have to ask ourselves if we’re doing enough to get to where we want to go. Sometimes, we have to take a step back, make difficult decisions, so that we’re able to cope with what life throws at us. This past month, I went on a social media/blogging hiatus. I took a long break from all that I felt I just couldn’t deal with anymore, so that I’d have a better understanding of where I’d want to be later on in life. Taking a break from the constants in your life may sound easy in theory, but it takes a lot more effort than we may anticipate. I felt as though a part of my day-to-day life was missing entirely, that I wasn’t engaging enough, that I wouldn’t be able to bounce back. I had planned on a week, and that week turned into a month. I can certainly say that bouncing back has taken a lot of effort, so much so I truly believe that effort has taught me so much more than I could’ve asked for. It’s easy to fall back into old habits, it’s easy to give into the things we may want on a whim, but it’s when we do what’s in our best interest, no matter how hard it may be, that we truly learn to take care of ourselves.”
As I sit here writing this, I almost forgot what it felt like. My initial thought was: “How do I begin?” My Monday blog post has always been a place for me to re-establish my goals, my wishes, and all that I might plan to do someday. Without it, I did feel empty. Though, at the time, given the circumstances, I truly believe it was beneficial in the long run. By this point in the beginning of a new week, I usually have the world of ideas that I’d want to share with the world, that I felt necessary to remind myself of. It definitely goes to show how much a simple routine can really keep things on track, and how I missed that oh so much.
A month without an outlet, a month without creative relief, and a reintroduction into the life I told myself I’d create. Life gets tough sometimes, and we all deal with things differently. I know that it will take some time before I can truly get back to where I was just over a month ago, but I won’t stop trying. That effort is going to make the difference, because without it, I wouldn’t be making any progress. Getting back into things takes time, and I am willing to give that time, so that I can feel the importance of what I want to do again, so that I can feel the fulfillment of creating something I can be proud of. The first step is always the hardest, and being thrown off track is never easy to deal with, but it’s never too late to continue. I have the world of neglected work, goals, and to-dos to attend to. The only difference is, now I feel as though I’m ready to take them all on, that I can actually do something about them, for I know that there is no better feeling in the world than a completed to-do list.
Don’t sit around thinking about all of the things that need to get done, don’t dwell on how many things sit on that list, for the only thing that matters is that initial push. Upon writing this, I told myself I’d give just another hour to get a few other things done, knowing that I’m already quite exhausted, but instead of doing that, I decided to set aside the time to let my thoughts out in the one way that has brought me fulfillment for years. We have to remind ourselves of what truly feels good, when we’re out there searching for all that we want. For some, it may begin a little closer to home than we anticipate.
Make It Count.