“I’ve never been one to complain too much about the way in which change occurs. I’ve never been one to proudly exclaim all it is I want, nor have I ever been the type to go out and get it. I have dreams, much like we all do. I have expectations, much like we all do. Disappointment is a factor that plays a great deal in one’s ability to perform, to do better, to maintain one’s will. There are a lot of things that have been changing rapidly over the past few months, most of which I’m quite enjoying. Though, there are some that make the situation rather difficult, as though they were put there to be unbearable in the first place. All I’ve got to say is, that each one is a learning experience. I am not going to sit around and allow my situation to cloud my judgement. Nothing comes easy, nothing is achieved without remarkable effort. You’ve got to put in the work, that is, if you expect the results you dream about.”
I can certainly breathe again. My spring courses have come to an end, I have an immense amount of love in my life, and I am ready to deal the rest of my time to focusing on my writing. These past few months have been hectic, they’ve been stressful, but they’ve taught me so much. If there’s one thing that I’ve come to realize, it’s that I cannot continue to live life at the bare minimum. If I want an extraordinary experience, it is something that I’m going to have to go out and get for myself. Everyone always says that anything worth having is worth fighting for. There will always be things that come up, that disrupt your flow, that irritate you. However, it is how you deal with those situations that make the most difference.
I’ve missed quite a few Mondays due to my spring course exams, as well as the immense traveling I’ve been doing as of late. Things are finally beginning to settle again, and I can catch my breath. Today in particular was one of the most stressful Mondays I’ve had in a while, but I’ve taken the situation, assessed it, and I am on my way to appropriately deal with it. Things get tough, and it can seriously interrupt the way in which you’re able to perform. That is something I’ve always known, especially throughout my prior formative years.
I am going to take the rest of my summer break and give my writing the time it deserves. I am going to read all of those books that keep piling up waiting for me to get my hands on them. I am going to allow myself to take it easy, and take everything one step at a time. I’m going to channel all of my frustrations into something beautiful, something that makes me feel alive. Whether that is a journal page, a novel, or a piece of prose. I want to create something, I want to do more, I want to continue to appreciate all that I do have. Those are the things that keep me going. Those are the things that are going to make the most difference as I continue to deal with all that life has to throw at me, as I learn, and as I grow.