“For some time now I had been separating my writing from experience, and this resulted in feeling as though my work was turning out inauthentic. Recently, I’ve been allowing myself to check my fears, to utilize them, draw from them, and not apologize for what they’ve taught me. The question always remained, “What would people think when they read this?” That is not what I should be worrying about, and that is certainly not something that should be holding me back from progressing in my work. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve noticed just how critical I’ve been of what I’ve been producing. I speak quite a bit about trying to make a difference in my productivity level, as well as in the quality of the content I create. Writing has always been a process I enjoyed, and I know that there is nothing else I’d rather be doing. It is quite strange, just how hard it can be to do the things we love, not because we don’t want to do them, but because there are things that are holding us back. It’s time for a necessary push in the right direction.”
“What’s making it so hard to continue?” I used to ask myself this all of the time, because I couldn’t quite figure out why it was so difficult to make any substantial progress on any of my projects. I used to ask myself what had changed, for the things that brought me the most joy, just weren’t having the same effect on me anymore. It wasn’t until I started to feel the experiences I was putting down on paper that I realized just how important it was to channel what it was that made me start writing in the first place. I started to implement the everyday inspirations I would come across into my work, and just like that, it began to feel like I was working towards something worthwhile, something attainable.
It’s important to have fun with it. I’ve found it as an escape, to throw myself into the world of my characters, to experience all of the things I’ve had questions about, so that I could learn, so that I could write something that I’m proud to share with the world. It doesn’t help to just want to make progress, to just want to write a novel. What matters is what you’re actually doing to make sure that is something you can do. I know that I’ve done it before, in its entirety. Thus, there shouldn’t be anything holding me back from seeing this project out until the very end.
“It doesn’t have to make sense in the beginning. Every loose end does not need to be tied, every grammar mistake does not need to be fixed at this stage. All you need to do is draft a story that excites you, that instills that great feeling of fulfillment within you so that you may reach your full potential.”
Give it a go, write something that’s meaningful to you, draw on all of those potentially suppressed memories. (I know I will). Let it be something you’re proud of, something that keeps you going.